集晴閣 What do you love? What do I love? Say everything. Let me see. I could go on all day. Go on all day. 文學、電影、貓、李商隱、吸血鬼、René Magritte......

11,463愛的鼓勵 12訂閱站台

（2008.5.22.）

影印室彷彿天天有印不完的資料一如我們每天有做不完的事、恍若有揮霍不完的明天一般，雖然天知道我們哪天就一覺不醒沒有明天。 是以，我日日行經辦公大樓的迴廊，空氣中總瀰漫著碳粉的氣息。而壁上梵谷明麗流轉的星夜時常迷惑我，那比任何照片都要真實淋漓地抓住渺小人類仰望滿天星斗時，那種原始而神祕的悸動…。

看見星星你會想起什麼？小王子銀鈴般的笑聲？古老美麗的詩行－「星垂平野闊」、「長河漸落曉星沈」、「星光漸減雨痕濕」、「昨夜星辰昨夜風」、「月浪衝天天宇濕，涼蟾落盡疏星入。但聞北斗聲迴環，不見長河水清淺。」？若虛在春江花月夜敻絕的宇宙意識？《Stardust》的開場白：A philosopher once asked, ”Are we human because we gaze at the stars, or do we gaze at them because we are human?” Pointless, really...”Do the stars gaze back?” Now *that’s* a question.《星塵傳奇》是則fairy-tale式的宇宙奇譚，關於墜落凡間的星辰、愛與被愛的抉擇、以及對青春的永恆戀慕。

故事是這樣開始的：從前從前，有一道星星無法跨越的牆，牆後是另一個世界。有人翱翔蒼穹獵捕閃電，一面吟詠著莎士比亞的詩行；有人將星星剖胸剜心以換得永駐的紅顏。有一個少年為了贏得佳人芳心，不惜冒險翻越謎牆闖進風暴禁域去拾掇星塵，可是天上掉下來的一定是禮物嗎？片中的巴比倫蠟燭倒令我想起《神鬼奇航》中的羅盤，原來人有時無法操控測知自己的心念，連自己真正要什麼也不明瞭。

星星愛上了人類該怎麼辦？她要如何開口說出她的愛？倘若克服怯場的最好方式是將群眾想成石頭，羞於啟齒告白時不妨將對方當成耗子，就可以從容自若熱情洋溢地講上這一大段：”You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn’t true. I know a lot about love. I’ve seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I’m trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I’d know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.”

Tristan的心在Victoria與Yvaine間一度擺盪，令人不由得輕吟曼唱Glenn Frey的成名曲” Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you？Or are you going back to the one you love？”，不知有多少人因這首歌而愛上薩克斯風？從前也篤信阿拉伯諺語說女人嫁給愛她的男人比她愛的男人幸福，但真要和自己一點也不愛的人生活也很困難吧？畢竟控制自己不變心要比期待別人容易。如果可以獨立自主的話，不如努力贏得所愛之人的愛，若真的沒有緣分，還不如保持單身吧！只是所謂一往情深不求回報在戀愛的階段或許是可能的，一旦走入婚姻，沒有相互扶持幫助如何長久？愛與被愛，遺憾或愧疚，有人說生命中的抉擇本來就是不可知和不可預測的，無論結果如何，只要抉擇的當下心裡很坦然就好，事後也無須懊惱或後悔。

「願所有有情的都蕩漾成星魚，無憂亦無懼。」（註）


註：出自陳黎《詠歎調－給不存在的戀人》