八月九日（星期日）
醫生說，我右手腕的三角軟組織受損，而且傷到筋，必須休息，建議多做伸展運動，幫助舒緩及復原，避免支撐動作讓軟組織受壓。
我認份地安排覆診治療，取消所有攀爬活動。
無法攀爬的日子很難過，一個人的時候，經常沈溺於過去。我分不清楚，到底是回憶讓我頭痛渴睡，還是我真的覺得疲累。
我昏睡了三兩天。
The Sleepy Blues.
八月廿二日（星期六）
打從七月，我跟阿俊再沒有聯繫。
They say, No Contact, it gets easier, day by day.
But I miss him, every single day.
A month gone on No-Contact, anything I see or experience that makes me happy, I still wanted to share with him; this feeling is not going away. We used to share things that we like, food, climbing, camping, music, film, or funny things that we came across. I miss all of that, I miss having him to share my life with.
這個週末，我跟同事到佛山遊玩。
晚上回到酒店，收到阿俊的訊息。
「吁，How are you?」
我就哭了起來。
不好，我一點都不好，可是，我沒有其他辦法。
But, however I feel, whatever I say, it’s not gonna make a difference. There is nothing he would do for me. He haswarned me from the start.
It’s all a Pack of Lies.
“Why hold onto someone when you know you are going to let go?”
友愛。不好，覺得受傷。
終於，我這麼回答了自己。
「沒事，我很好。」
I won’t confess and risk being reeled back into/settle for a FWB arrangement.
「打擾你了。」
是的，確實是被打擾了。
I just wanted to heal and move on.
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