Today, I have a bad experience of driving. My teacher said I did a lot of mistakes and I need to redo many things. Some of them are taught by Pastor, but it did not work for him. I just want to say Thank you Lord that he make me calm my heart instead of feeling anger and disconnected during driving.
Wenyan went through a lot of things today. I am sorry for that but happy that she is growing in spiritual life and her personality. Today we went to Exploratorium, a fun science museum. I and wenyan have a great time there together. But I did not concentrate on my Holy Spirit. When we leave, I realized that He is not in me for a period of time and my heart soared for his return. Without Holy Spirit, I don't feel as happy and satisfy. I learned that it is very easy to lose Him. I need to keep my consiciousness that I must not ignore him, or else Lord will be sad and left me alone.
Fortunately, Holy Spirit hear my cry and come back to me. I keep praising Him and He keeps love me back. At night we went to Church on the Hill and also back home, I have so many interaction with Jesus Christ. I would never forget this day how Holy Spirit play in my spiritial life.
How Holy Father interact me:
On the way to the Church, Holy Father tells me many things about the future and guidance. I do not have the courage to tell Pastor and Wenyan for I am still not sure whether is in my head thinking or His words. In church, the speakers Susan and her husband are doing the lecture on healing with the aide of Holy Spirit. However, in my situation, Holy Spirit is explaining things to me, He tells me in my understanding and reveals me answers when the speakers ask the questions. My concentration is not on the speakers, rather, on Holy Spirit. When the speakers talks about problems that hinder us from connecting Holy Spirit, He tells me to follow him wholeheartedly and He will support me on solving my personal weakness and thus have more relationship with Him. At the ending of the lecture, I prayed for Wenyan and Tina, I thought images sent by Holy Father. When Tina prayed for me, my body trembled so much and I almost lost my consciousness and out of breath! God is amazing. Going back home, I prayed during a bath and God is helping to drive out evil spirit inside. I put my hands on my throat and try to cough out for three times. Although I have scary images after that, I feel peaceful after that. Pastor tells me to not worry about it and ask God to help me more. Jesus also tells me that He will protect me if I love him. So I am okay now.
three concerns for inviting Holy Spirit within me:
1. Holy Spirit is very easy to leave me if I deny Him or ignore Him. I do not want Him to leave because I really love Him and He will be sad if He leaves me.
2. Holy Spirit touch my body and soul in a very powerful way. I need to build up my body and soul in order to enjoy His presence of love
3. Holy Spirit tells me things to do or not to do, but is very hard to recognize whether they are my thoughts or really His message. I need to love Him more and understand His personality.
Dear Holy Father:
Thank you for everything today. I do not how to repay for your work on me.
Please drive the evil spirit inside me.
Please let me have a safe and clean relationship with Wenyan in God's way.
Please let my family to know you.
Please 'fire up' my church.
Amen. My dear Holy Spirit
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