From New York to East Bay May 2005~ August 2007 Two years, from Upper West Manhattan to East Bay San Francisco. Our steps went through sentiment NYC to sunny California. Two years past by, we never stop exploring. Experiencing life together And this is ”From New York to East Bay”

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這篇文章我今天下午就寫好，但因為網站資料庫升級所以沒辦法即時上傳文章。下午五點多我跟夏美光一起看影集，所以沒留意到他的訊息，六點多當我回到電腦前準備繼續工作時，收到訊息的我不知該說什麼。沒有人願意故意去傷害任何人，我也能理解他的憤怒。但事情誤會都解開後，我們也誠心的道歉了，不明白倒底要怎麼做才能讓憤怒平息。選擇原諒這麼難嗎？

本來再看到他的訊息後打算將這篇文章刪去，但我總覺得妳的不舒服是因我的好奇心而起，我應該道歉。所以就算遲了些，我還是要將心裡話傳達。唯有這樣我的心才能回復平靜。請不要再放話了，妳/你有權力生氣，也可以選擇不原諒，但我不希望將事情越弄越糟，畢竟家人對我很重要！！

原文：

Out of my stupid curiosity, a girl’s heart was hurt. I wasn’t planning to keep probing cuz there was another thing bothering me last night. However, my previous inquiry did cause damage to their relationship. I felt terrible about this. So many things happened before have made my mind blind. It became difficult for me to trust. Last weekend, I got a feeling that I might be misunderstanding that girl. I asked my hubby what kind of attitude I should hold to this “Somebody” thing. Should I doubt everyone’s purpose of knowing me? I hate myself being mistrustful. I know that wasn’t me. But he said I was always too easy to trust anyone and this was why I was cheated so many times. He was trying to protect me but since I heard my bother in-law’s explanation, I bought his saying and wasn’t interested in “Somebody” anymore. My attention was driven to another thing related to a friend of mine. Because of “Somebody” showed up in my site, I started to read that girl’s blog and this became a habit of mine. Last night, I thought I owed her an apology for my friend’s thing; therefore I went to her blog again then I saw the quotation of my article in her latest journal. My doubt about “Somebody” reappeared. I was wondering which saying I should trust. Therefore argument started and that stupid picture became ridiculous evidence. I was obsessed to that picture but forgot to see other possibility of this event so I misunderstood her again. I read her journal this morning and felt terrible about what I had done to her. My doubt became a razor that caused her heart bleed. I am so sorry about this. So sorry…

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Vasily Kandinsky. (French, born Russia. 1866-1944). Watercolor (Number 13). 1913. Watercolor on paper, 12 5/8 x 16 1/8” (32.1 x 41.0 cm). Katherine S. Dreier Bequest. © 2006 Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York / ADAGP, Paris