Underneath Your Clothes 殞落的紅鑾星

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2009.10.30

 

Maybe I was always wrong and didn’t realize it for a long time, I guess I should be more sensitive and shouldn’t treat all the people like friends, that would juz make me more stupid.

 

Nobody could understand the damn situation of me now, but I still wanna thank of you to call me in the midnight although I am not the reason. Still, I gotta admit it that I feel much more better after talking to you for three hours till day light. I cried a lot two days ago but you dunno and dun have to know, I was really really sad about those harmful dialogs. You know I tried so hard to be careful of no matter the way to talk or communicate, and still be hurt badly. I guess I am not considerate to her at all and perhaps that’s why she blamed everything on me.

 

After all, only the stuff in the states made me happier by Frances, and I was touched by you of getting online and talk to me after been interrupted through sweet dreams by me. Last night (this morning maybe) you told me that you read my blogs and albums when you felt down of working, and that did make feel meaningful of my life through no reasons. I guess you definitely are dosing in front of your 3D design now cuz you didn’t get any sleep last night and spend all the night talking to me. Somehow I wanna tell you I was juz joking when I said you are fat or old… gotta tell me if you feel uncomfortable ok?

 

It’s not a appropriate position for me through my personality and I gotta find another way to go and I though I found it due to the conversation of last night. I will be thankful if you are willing to teach me that but I guess we really couldn’t become good friends, you wanna be a great teacher right? And dun crash me plz…I will be a perfect student as I can I promise. You know I always do all my efforts on anything, I guess lah…

 

Anyway I am on my way back to Taipei on Taiwan High Speed Rail Way, arriving in 6 mins. Hope to see you on the weekends, so you better get some sleep more tonight.