There is an ancient Greek saying ‘know yourself’ from Delphi Apollo Temple. I think you already hear this sentence several times in your colorful university life. So, today, I am not going to say it one more time. I come here trying to use the concept ‘Unconditional Impulse’ to explain ‘know yourself’. Maybe you never hear this kind of theory before, maybe you are not agreed with me, and maybe my idea deeply strikes your mind. Whatever, it’s all of my sharing.
The best way to get someone’s trust is just sharing a secret. So, I am going to share a secret, which Sophia has noticed that. I remembered she had said to someone else ‘Don’t you think Tormas is the person who will abuse his dog?’ Yes, I have to admit, her judgment is absolutely correct. Since I was a kindergarten student, only 6 years old, I already knew it. People usually call it ‘violence tendency’. But my violence tendency is not easy to notice, because I am not that kind of person you will relate to violence. And I totally understand that if I do something bad I just need pretending I am a little innocent boy in front of teachers, and nobody will trust that I did such a terrible behavior. Like, destroy someone’s favorite toy; pee together with my friend to the traitors (who told our bad thing to teacher); trick someone everyday who has a good temper. For these pure evil ideas, I don’t know where it comes from. It just keeps around in my mind and I can’t get rid of it unless I make these pure evil ideas be true. Such a fucking unconditional impulse. But things have a great change when I start to play computer game. At that imaginary world, I can fulfill my violence desire without hurting anybody. It finally finds a way out of my mind, temporarily. So, based on my violence impulse, let me answer Sophia’s question again. Don’t you think Tormas is the person who will abuse his dog? The answer is yes, I don’t know why, but I won’t. That’s the difference between me and the most real criminals, they want to abuse dog and they will torment dog, for they don’t know how to deal with their unconditional violence impulse.
My second unconditional impulse relates to one of my high school friends. And also, this speech is trying to answer his question, even though he is not here. One day, after a huge examination, such a beautiful atmosphere and sunny weather, I finally had a free time to take a nap between classes. But he walked to me straightly; I know nothing good will happened. We are that kind of friend ‘Hey, hi, goodbye’. He was serious, very serious; I hate that kind of serious. He started to question me ‘I study harder than you. Yes, I know. I stay at school every night. Yes, I know. I am more concentrated on classes than you. Yes, I know. But why I get 6 points in this national geography exam and you get 76 points? ’ At that moment, I clearly understood that what I was trying to answering are rubbishes, for I don’t know the real answer. But, after 4 years searching, the answer for me is so clear and obvious than ever. To prove my answer, I ask him to make an experiment together. That is, we attend the university examination again, but without any preparation. See what will happen this time. The result for me is not surprised at all, I got the same leverage points about 87%, and he only got 25%, from 55% to 25%. So, this summer, I wrote a letter to him, with my university entrance exam report card. You asked me a question four years ago, and I don’t know the answer at that moment. But now, I think I already know the real answer. I admit that you studied harder than I, you spent more time than I, and you are more concentrated on classes than I. But I have something you are lack of, it helps me get 76 point, it brings me to Fu Jen University, and also brings me to the philosophy world. That is the unconditional impulse of reading, which makes you and me are so different.
I think my letter is very cruel but helpful, what do you think?
Before my conclusion, I quote a piece of paragraph to you from 《自剖》, which is finished by one of my favorite writer 徐志摩. ‘The most tragedy in the world is that you imagine a world to lie yourself. You thought you are a writer, but you are not; you thought you are a real artist, but you are not; you thought you are a real musician, but you are absolutely not. Don’t put these unnecessary burdens to your shoulder, it will break yourself. Ask yourself, is there an invisible power, pushing you, annoying you, and force you to let whole of your realistic life go away?’ Yes, the obvious key points are the invisible power and the unconditional impulse. Without it, human will not have science, literature, masterpiece drawings, fantastic architectures, and I-pod I-phone I pad.’
Ladies and gentleman, do you know you unconditional impulse? Do you know yourself? I think this is the reason why some people don’t like their major; some people complain that they are put into wrong places. Some people pay lots of efforts but still gain nothing and not happy. Because they don’t know what their unconditional impulse is.
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