A Mind of a 10 Years Old 很喜歡看電影、很喜歡觀察人、很喜歡想一些有的沒有的。得一種"有想法，不說出來很難過的病"。不過因為常常自閉一個人，很怕跟陌生人相處，所以只好把想法都放在這裡。因為只是一些個人的觀察和想法，所以沒有要特別經營這個園地。更重要的原因，就只是懶。一種無與倫比的懶。所以不會有照片、圖片，或是漂亮美麗的版面啦~~~。討厭看很多字的人，就抱歉了 :P

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In Your Soul – Corey Hart

Ever since I was a little kid, I have always thought that I could run faster than the wind. Stare up to the sky with open spaces, I could live and die. Man, you can find that in no book. You never find that in no book. Some one will drag you down and try to knock you under. Hey mama said with her words of wonder, don’ t matter cause, cause it’ s in your soul.

I have always felt that I had to prove it to myself. No salvation from the firing lines. A million dreams won’t set you free. God I know there’s something trapped in me. There’s no refuge from the ride. No shelter ever save a man his pride. Give you pain and never feed your hunger. I won’t close my eyes when it rains and thunders. Don’t matter cause, cause it’s in your soul.

…..(略)

Hey mister, don’t shadow box with me, cause I don’t wanna someday be an old man cursing what I might have been. Now I realize what I see that the wind was never chasing me, and I don’t feel so alone. I can close my eyes. I’m going home. Behind the clouds the sun is shining. Some rain will fall, no use of crying…..(略)

一直很喜歡這首歌。可以一次又一次的聽。只因為他的詞深深的打動我。或許我還是個孩子吧。還是相信我可以乘風飛翔。還是想一次又一次的證明給自己。用每一次不同的目標來證明自己的生命。雖然隨著年紀的增長，隨著每一次目標達不成的挫敗，或是達成後的空虛，我已經知道，生命其實是藏在這些虛幻之後，是深埋在靈魂之中。但是，知道卻不是接受。在不服輸的任性與順天命的隨性，兩者之間的爭戰中，我成為我生命唯一的輸家或是疲憊不堪的玩家。

每次聽這首歌，就會忍不住深呼吸。好像我真的可以不再被自己追趕。好像可以偷偷的躲起來休息一下。好像可以暫時不用跑在生命之前。好像寂寞已經隨著孤單被打敗。當Don’t matter cause, cause it’s in your soul隨著旋律飄進我耳裡，我就會深呼吸，好像自己可以把頭伸出雲層之外，閉上眼睛，然後沐浴在金色的陽光下。而那一口深呼吸，可以深到靈魂深處，讓他也可以甦醒過來。然後，我可以真的很灑脫的說出，Things really don’t matter to me, cause, cause it’s all in my soul where my life belongs. ~~~ Well, maybe someday…