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這篇是情緒。

這是一首最近發現的歌，

Wait for you：

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I”m missing you and I”m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I”m all alone,

Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
if you are not around it”s a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears stay keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
 
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it”s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don”t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I”m fine it just aint true

I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I”ll wait for you
It”s been a long time since you called me
(did you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,

Everything stays the same
I just can”t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that Girl
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me

Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?

 

Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

 

 

歌詞感覺很長，但是我第一次聽就愛上了，

所以這幾天沒事就掛起耳機，

或許我是在沉澱或冷卻自己，

畢竟心太亂了，生活脫軌現象層出不窮，

有種說法是因為不穩定的春天，

我也希望這只是時間的玩笑；

生活裡的意外是，走廊抬頭，

竟發現從四樓算竄下來的生機，

這幕絆住了我的腳步，

想不到，會是含羞草。

 

 

昨天媽跟我說外婆的肝又發現4公分的腫瘤，

其實我心裡很久以前就有底了，

只是我今天拿蠟筆在描四分之一球體的邊時，

有一股巨大的感傷無預警的衝出我的理智，

好在淚腺年久失修，

但我整個人從數學中被拖出來，

陷入從前的一些回憶中，

她，我外婆，

從小時候幫我洗澡、餵我吃飯、帶我去公園、

一起看八點檔、一起起個大早去散步、一起下棋打麻將，

到現在雖然我大了，

還是常在我要回台北時塞給我零用錢，

即使她自己買菜錢都不夠(當然我沒有收...)，

但我能做的不過就是放假時回去陪陪她，

晚上躺在她旁邊，靠著她的手臂，

握著她瘦骨嶙峋的手，

聽她說從前她年輕時的往事，

由於老年記憶衰退加上漸漸有點輕微痴呆，

同樣的故事內容複述了好多次，

即使我都能倒背如流，

我還是津津有味地聽著，

不是因為內容精采，

而是，那些是僅存她能與我分享的東西了，

我更應該珍惜，就算年長了、懂事了，

在外婆面前，我還是一個小孩，

如果能讓外婆擁有成就感或滿足感，

我寧可永遠當小孩。

過一兩天外婆可能就會住院觀察，

比起平安健康，我更希望外婆能快樂，

我還是慢了幾步，

沒有辦法趕在外婆還硬朗時事業有成，

沒有什麼機會回報對她的虧欠，

人在無助時會祈禱，所以，

上帝，我向你祈禱，

願，外婆不要有重大疾病，

能夠快樂的活著，遠離病痛。