From New York to East Bay May 2005~ August 2007 Two years, from Upper West Manhattan to East Bay San Francisco. Our steps went through sentiment NYC to sunny California. Two years past by, we never stop exploring. Experiencing life together And this is ”From New York to East Bay”

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What is the purpose to learn?

Recently, I’ve been questioning my purpose to attend a master school. I learn simply because I want to learn or it should be learning for future career, to have a better life. This can never be an easy question to me. Will I surely to have a better life after getting a master degree? Back to the bottom line, what kind of life do I see as a better one?

I know I am not a person who is ambitious; on the other hand, I would rather say I am a mild person who only cares about how to maintain a good relationship with others. I dare not to reveal my true feelings. When confronting conflicts with others, I always dodge, trying to escape from the hard time instead of facing the problem. Now I dodged again, I refused to defend for myself again. I yielded with no hesitation. Deep in my mind, I know I have my own thoughts and I know I’ve already found the answer but how can I tell my own idea since it has always been up to you. My life has always been decided by someone else and I know I will keep living in others’ will for the rest of my life. I’ve always been a good child, a good student, a good friend, and even a good wife but I’ve never been good to myself. If life can be started all over again, will there be other choices for me?

Though I’ve complaint a lot, I still felt grateful to have this life. There are so many “thank yous” I wanna say. Without you, there is no whom I am. I gotta say thank you for loving me and I love you guys, too.

For the very beginning question, I still hope I can be a person who learns simply because I want to.

I probably need some kick backs before moving on.