今天,想靜靜地分享同一首歌Both Sides Now。同樣的歌手,在1970年代,以及2000年歷經人生起落波折後,再度吟唱,呈現出迥然不同的韻味。這位歌手-Joni Mitchell的歌聲,不知為何,就是會深入到人的心坎裡。
1970年-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcrEqIpi6sg&feature=related,簡單清純的unplugged歌聲,感動了許多當時的男男女女。
到了2000年,同樣的歌卻變成了充滿感傷的歌聲,這首歌也是電影Love Actually裡,非常重要的劇情引索元素,在劇中,原本認為自己沒有情緒起伏而需要情緒教育的Emma Thompson,在溫習了Joni Mitchell的歌聲之後,發現自己原來還是有喜怒哀樂。而被打開的情緒之門,卻在此時結結實實的被先生打了一巴掌。先生送了她Joni Mitchell的新專輯當聖誕禮物,慶祝她情緒教育的成功,卻不知,他的所作所為,才是讓Emma Thompson情緒失控的真正因素。這張Album,象徵著Emma Thompson的新的樣貌,關上已久的心扉,由著Joni的歌聲插上了開鎖的鑰匙,諷刺的是,就是來自先生的不忠,才是讓她情緒宣洩的最後芒草。
電影裡,當太太明瞭先生對她不忠後,又聽到Joni Mitchell的歌詞裡提到’I really don’t know love’,明明是傷心欲絕,卻要控制自己的情緒,不讓哭聲傳到客廳裡,無奈卻又必須如此不可之時,此時,歌聲替她訴說了一切-從「施」與「受」兩面來端量「愛」,到底,這愛是錯誤的?還是她的一廂情願?多年來為家庭的付出,難道只是空中樓閣,水中的幻影?
請欣賞Emma Thompson經典的演出。
有了電影的畫面,對照歌詞更是讓人感慨。
http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=i2wgxeYy4RE
或是可以直接聽歌,2000年版的Joni Mitchelle重新詮釋Both Sides now,許多youtube的使用者說,這是他們這一輩子裡,最被感動的一首歌,而Joni Mitchell在她們心中,是如Bob Dylan一般,上帝所贈予的禮物。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKQSlH-LLTQ
在歌詞裡,Joni用了「雲」的意象來代表她對愛的渴求,愛是什麼?是神話?還是雲裡看花?
也許,我不清楚為什麼Joni如此悲觀的原因,但她勇敢了檢視自己對生命的失落,一首歌有著跨越三十年的演繹,為著這願意再度面對的勇氣,一切就值得好好聆聽這首Both Sides now.
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Both Sides now的歌詞
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way
But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away
I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say ”I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all