妳在信中還是會說妳有多想我多希望我在那，
還是會講類似妳有時都不想去交換學生因為想親自接我機的話。
我在信中還是會不經意輕描淡寫帶過，
譬如"i think my every prayer does begin and end with your name"這種話。
妳還是會説妳愛我，雖然在我聽來已像是朋友的愛不那麼沈重了。
而我根本不會說了，因為在我們分手那天我親口講出來之前，
我就已想好我好一陣子都不要說了。
至少直到我確定了甚麼為止。
今早不知道為甚麼的想起國中很愛的一首歌，
當時我從來不知道歌詞是甚麼。
現在一聽，豈不就是我們嘛。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBm2J-gKeUE
"Never Be The Same Again"
Come on. Ooh, yeah.
Never be the same again.
I call you up whenever things go wrong.
You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.
I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
Is this something that I might regret?
(Come on, come on)
Nothing ventured nothing gained.
(You are the one)
A lonely heart that can't be tamed.
(Come on, come on)
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget.
I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Now I know that we were close before.
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
And we'll never be the same again.
I thought that we would just be friends (oh yeah).
Things will never be the same again. (Never be the same again)
It's just the beginning it's not the end. (We've only just begun)
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door. (Opened up the door)
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Nite and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
The US to UK, NYC to LA.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'
My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.
But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.
But wait.
A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.
And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.
I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
(Come on, come on)
Things will never be the same again.
(You are the one)
Never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
＊
先不管後來好了。
我仍是覺得妳是我的奇蹟。
連男人都無法讓我勇敢了，
妳大概是唯一讓我能夠如此的女人。
連以朋友而言，能信任人到把銀行密碼給人的朋友，也不多了。
想當初我們願意為對方做的事，
幹，真的很了不起欸，
而我們真的是純友誼起家的。
我居然會願意為妳查妳報告主題的資料幫妳分攤時間，
或讀妳期中考考的內容為了考妳有沒有讀書，
或一堆有的沒的......
而妳也是，總是出其不意的小舉動，
知道我沒時間就幫我買好上課的午餐，
或搭高鐵來台中一個下午只為了陪我心情差，
或甚至根本不熟時一句話妳就願意陪我去喝酒即使妳根本不喝。
我都有看在眼裡，
或許也是因為這樣，
我也更不吝於付出吧，
畢竟我再偉大也不是個願意淪為被利用的傻人。
而妳從來不讓我覺得落單，也不重色輕友（或許就是這部份讓我們變成這樣的？！）
而就這樣比拼下去一個舉動比一個舉動還更像情侶。
與其說是情侶，應該是說我們的親密度根本無懈可擊。
每天不知道幾封的簡訊和見面時間再加上講電話...
如果沒有講電話就代表我又在妳家了。
應該説是，
我從來不用怕對妳好或是對妳說出真心話，
因為妳總是會接“欸妳幹嘛又搶先我想要講的話！“
大概是這樣，妳治了我不安全感引起的fear of intimacy吧。
還有那一吻。
我怎麼想也想不起怎麼發生的。
我們只是一如往常的打鬧吧。
（我會願意和妳肢體接觸也是個奇蹟畢竟我根本不熱衷..除了妳吧）
但我們打鬧了近一年也沒如何。
（雖然最後幾個月誇張了些但也還是很清純）
或許時機真的是成熟了。
或許真的是命運。
所以就像我說的，這分手，
倒也真的沒有讓我傷痛，
（真的有讓我感到難受的反而是我以為我們真的要一週不能連絡時）
反而是輕鬆。
哎幹，暑假啊，或妳之後出國，或我回國，
還有一堆新的問題在前面等著呢。
但是至少還有妳陪我一起面對。
結果昨晚和人聚完餐回到家很晚了，
本來不打算寫信，後來還是捎了幾句話。
睡不太著，突然覺得好久沒聽到好想念妳聲音，
一小時內打了兩通，妳都沒接。
算了。
搞不好妳在他家。
或是在圖書館用功。（攤手）
結果妳今早居然打來了。
“咦妳幹嘛打來！？妳該不會又出事了吧！？“ 我說。
“想念妳的聲音啊不行噢。
才過了四天，但像是好久好久了。“
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