親愛的瑪媽，今天你來到了中山動物醫院，把我接回家。
我聽到了快步走向醫院的你心怦怦地跳，你故做堅強地嚼著口香糖。不想讓別人看出你剛才還在捷運上看著手機裡我小時候的照片痛哭。
你穿得很酷，全身黑，就是我平常的酷媽。頸子上還戴著白色iPod Shuffle。
只有我才知道，你在出門的時候，在包包裡先給我墊了一條暖烘烘的圍巾。也只有我才知道，iPod播放的，不是流行音樂。是瑪媽要給我指路回家的「藥師佛心咒」。
瑪媽你不要哭。
你關機了兩天。今天你堅強了點，記掛著我，想早點起來，打電話安排接我回家的事。早上九點，鬧鐘還沒響，快天亮才入眠的你突然醒來，想著虎子今天沒來夢裡看瑪媽。
瑪媽，其實你一早下樓跟管理員伯伯講話的時候，我已經飛到了你的身旁。
好心的范阿姨這個時候也經過管理員室。但其實這些都不是巧合。
你對范阿姨說：「我好多了，我已經可以笑了。」
後來瑪媽你回到樓上，才知道是疲累帶走了淚水。當熟睡後醒來，你想念我的眼淚，還是串串滴落。
瑪媽，我看到了你在陽台上給我開的那盞燈。
瑪媽，我知道，自從我成為有著翅膀的小天使，你一直在陽台上給我留著一盞燈，好讓我知道瑪媽在等候我。屋裡，瑪媽給我反覆放著搖籃曲。
夜好深了。燈光下，瑪媽坐在松木椅子上想念著我。
今天天氣突然轉寒。你在冰冷中坐著，一陣風吹過，陽台上的馬拉巴栗和刺棘唏嗦作響。
瑪媽，我好想你知道我就在你左右，我好想擦乾你臉頰上的淚水。
瑪媽坐著計程車帶我回家。
好熟悉的景色。去年瑪媽帶我去中山動物醫院打第二次五合一疫苗後也是沿著這條路回家。
瑪媽你流著眼淚，親吻著我。告訴我：「虎子，你回家了。」。
瑪媽，我親愛的瑪媽。不要再哭。Kamie阿姨寄給你，讓你流淚又讓你安慰的小小英詩，確實出自我本貓手筆。
你忘了？我是一隻雙語小貓。你還曾把我閱讀英文報紙的照片放在部落格上。
那一切都是真實。
我就在你的四周守候著你。不要再哭泣。
你是我最親愛的瑪媽。
虎兒叩首
”I stood by your bed last night;
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear.
”It`s me, I haven`t left you, I`m well, I`m fine, I`m here.”
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour the coffee.
You were thinking of the many times your hands reached out to me.
I was with you at the shops today.
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels;
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today;
you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you
that I`m not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you;
I smiled and said ”it`s me.”
You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that
I was standing there.
It`s possible for me to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty,
”I never went away.”
You sat there very quietly,
then smiled, I think you knew ...
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is almost over...
I smile and watch you yawning and say
”Good night, God bless,
I`ll see you in the morning.”
And when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
I`ll rush across to greet you and we`ll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ...
then come home to be with me.”
(Poem sent by KW)
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