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成熟的人,做人做事講求圓融與週全
顯然,年近不惑的我還是如年輕時不成熟
無法配合演戲,也無法勉強自己壓抑真實感受
所幸,你的擔心根本多餘
我很好而社員們都心照不宣
真的是呆頭鵝耶你,到底是誰被設計了?
之前,看你打的中文字寥寥無幾
丟完刀子後才出現你我的中文名,然後是「東海」和「淡水捷運站」
全部加起來不過才11個中文字
語言使用反應許多事,不只分析你,也分析了自己
從一開始排斥用英文到後來只用英文
再次印證我有多容易在情感中繞著別人轉,這件事完全沒進步
蹩腳的英文告白,自此變成絕佳的提醒物,希望我以後會不一樣
你掛心社團活動而捎來的提醒,讓我不得不打破沉默,把事情略略交待
本來想不了了之的,雖然這樣也蠻怪的
但你之前的溫情拒絕已是完美句點啊
不過,還蠻高興因而最後終於恢復中文書寫的習慣
母語都是中文的我們,在台灣為什麼要用英文通信?感覺很蠢耶
更別提,你英文程度遠遠優於教英文的我,讓我壓力好大
我用agree你用concur,我用depression你用melancholia……
諸如此類,不勝枚舉,我的自卑感總是油然而生
很驚訝你居然用中文打了一封信回我,又順便教了我一些事
還勸我試著改變現在的生活形態,這部份儼然是Erin上身
無論如何,中打慢又怕詞不達意、戲稱自己是「假洋鬼子」的你
勉力為之,真的讓我感動
這麼難得,改把你的中文信當作完美句點好了
沒意外的話,我們真的不會再見了
窗外的風景隨季節更替
而心窗景致的改變有時僅需片刻,有時卻難以算計
一個夏天夠不夠?減去動心就可以繼續當朋友?
人生要是像數學算式那般清楚絕對就好了
我不想再見你,我不能再見你,為什麼不懂呢?
會的,我當然會快樂地活著,按照我喜歡且覺得舒服的方式
我會記好你幫我複習的心動感覺,下次應該會早點發現吧
我們就到此為止了,謝謝你帶來的驚喜
南瓜寫的這段話,我很有共鳴:
緣份是這樣的,永遠只有此刻。
如果此刻不行,那就是盡頭了。
只有 “此刻可以,也願意分享和珍惜的”,才是真實的。
寄託於未來,永遠是另一個故事的起頭。
因為時間有限,
這個我也有限。
Fallin’ For You – Colbie Caillat
I don't know but...
I think I may be
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I…
Know you better
I am trying…
Not to tell you…
But I want to…
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I’m hiding…
What I’m feeling…
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my… time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my… life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m falling for you...
I'm falling for you...
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me
I'm trying…
Not to tell you…
But I want to…
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I’m hiding…
What I’m feeling...
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my… time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my… life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
Ooh, I just can't take it…
My heart is racing…
Emotions keep spinning out...
I've been spending all my… time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my… life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I’m fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
I think I’m fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I’m fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I’m fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...
Ooohhh
Ooh no no
Oooooohhhhh
Oooh, I’m falling' for ya
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