daidai 說:
where are you going?
master 說:
anywhere....
daidai 說:
sounds so sad...
master 說:
yeah...
dai dai 說:
... where are you now?
why don't want to stay in world?
master 說:
at home.....bro said bad words at me.
dai dai 說:
then you can hide his food?
master 說:
ha..hmm...he felt i didnt take care of my father..dad was sick
dai dai 說:
kidnap his child?
=( but you're a good kid. i'm sure you took care of ur dad
master 說:
my bro lived in hosipital
but i didnt
he said im "不要臉的女人"
so... i was very sad these days
dai dai 說:
... that's very mean...
master 說:
yeah...
dai dai 說:
ur a good girl
he's just... stressed...
master 說:
i cried everyday when i was alone..home or office
i know he is just stressed...that's all right. But i cant sleep and not want to eat...
dai dai 說:
... believe in yourself...
and when you get emotional... go spend time with dad =)
master 說:
ok i did.
dai dai 說:
and at worst... just ignore bro... and pinch the kid....hahaa...
master 說:
haha....i will try...ha...
dai dai 說:
smile more too. even if you are sad... i think your dad will feel better seeing your smile
master 說:
I always smile when I take care of him, but i also felt sad because ma and dad didnt prevent something....
dai dai 說:
... doesn't mean they don't care. maybe they are just focused on dad.
and think the kids will work things out
master 說:
i know. thank you
dai dai 說:
no need to thank la. silly
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Dear H,
當我坐立難安，手指在雙膝上快要捲成麻花辮，張口又閉口，好不容易吞吞吐吐地說了：「嗯，我想我們.....」依舊無法完整把心裡面的意思表達出來，就像你說我們這個家也是一樣。
我本來就不是一個會說好聽話，不是一個會溝通、會表達的人，我的家人跟你的家人也不一樣，但出發點都是覺得自己這樣做是為對方好，雖然那個好的定義真的是因人而異，我也可以了解為什麼你無法體會一家人之間好像都不知道對方在想什麼、在做什麼那種很奇怪的感覺。
問你想不想分手真是很難啟齒的一件事，也是我這陣子在心中反覆想了很久的諸多事情之一。除了家裡，最近工作也有了變化，仍急著找家教找兼差，還有跟師父討論錢該從哪來，哈，我想他快被我煩死了，才會寫信要我們兩個都要加油，卻不知我心裡的盤算。
不過，多虧有你們在。白天有他聽我焦慮亂跳亂出主意亂發問，晚上有你包容我的哭哭啼啼，當我情緒的出口，可是平常你自己的日子就夠苦夠忙了，現在再加上我的，不只是見不到面、相處的時間變更少，無法陪你做你想做的事給你快樂，或許明年底我們約定的計劃也無法成行，媽媽三番兩次的崩潰也需要安慰，這些林林總總的壓力，讓我更加憂心害怕，對未來感到無望。
昨天我去參加以前同事的喜宴，突然婷跑過來跟我說，她看到那件事已經被查到，發出的公文上面印著我的名字....我當下背脊涼了半截，惡夢又跑回來找我，整顆心像被一隻手掐得更緊，我不敢想像要是影響到現在的一切那又會是什麼模樣？
Dear H，我想你已經發現了我愛逃避的個性。如果這就是人生的話，我只希望，能對我愛的人公平一點，對你公平一點。然後，做錯的事有機會彌補，來不急做的事有時間去做。
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