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過去一星期發生了很多事....考試總算過去了...我想...成績還可以吧...
第一次吊墨魚..感覺不錯..跟大叔聊得很開心
看了電影..蠻好笑的..魔盜王什麼什麼...
還去了2 次ktv ...


it seems all the things are being good ,right?
it seems that is a great week,i enjoy it so much,right ?

and do u think my answer is "yea, sure , i do enjoy it very very much .it was so great !"?

absolutely not

all because of the phone call
one night,sb. phone me to ask my excuse.he say "sorry" for a thousand times.meanwhile, i just think of why u hit my nerve.
that is definitely a only wouond in my life. i am trying my best,putting all the effort to let it flow . and what are u doing now ?u just say it over and over ..i know u did’t mean it, but still, this phone call make me back to the time, and u know what i mean "the time".so please be kind to me ....letme take rest ..i really really need a break. you know i have gone crazy already ,please don’t mention that anymore and leave me alone,this is the last thing i beg u to do so ,and the only thing u can do for me .


早陣子..我已經平伏了很多很多...當然還有想起他..但是郤沒有像現在一樣的激動...

每分每秒都在想著他...害我哭個不停....可是只有獨個兒的時候才可以好好的哭一場..

現在的日子..跟剛剛之到他有女朋友的日子相比....不之怎的..變得越來越難過..變得越來越糟....以前還會想那一個自殺方法比較舒服...現在沒了自殺的念頭....只是...什麼都沒了..淚水已經不夠用作發洩...就算流血淚也不能.......那樣的無助..那樣的無奈...我還可以作什麼?我曾嘗試接受另一個人...結果呢?

那裡會有人甘願完完全全的把自己當作代替品?

也可能我連合適的代替品都找不到....

我現在才19歲而已...你要我怎樣橕下去?...小時候的我..已經清楚生存是一種不知所謂的事情...就是一種破壞..在"他"以前的生活...根本就是過得很無謂..沒方向沒目標...
16歲的夏天..起了變化..跟蒲公英一樣..找到個地方可以好好的生長....
18歲的秋天....一陣秋風就吹起了我這個小小的蒲公英..只好怪自己沒有好好的抓住那伊甸園般美麗的地方....

然後...
再觸不到地了..
那個曾屬於我的地方..已經長滿了花..再容不下我...即使是小得可憐的空隙都沒有....

已經再沒有能力落地生根了..因為再也找不到可以媲美那片土的地方

不是執著...而是事實..因為我曾在那兒...