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有時候
我會覺得很不安

Sometimes I think
I simply want some sort of attention

不過
您總不會給夠我

Or should I say
I am demanding too much?

其實
我也會帶給您一些不安

You didn't say
I just know everything that I shouldn't know

而且
您可能不會相信

Our hearts are so close
And I could hear your heart beats

所以
我更加不安

Because it is obvious that
Your heart is not beating as I would like it to be

可惜在
我也無法解釋清楚

I am told
You wouldn't give me what I want

很多時候
我哭時您不會想安慰我

When I am need someone
You are taking care of somebody else

我說話時
您聽著但不是想著我

When I smile
You never look at me

當我開始煩躁
當我的耐性開始不夠用的時候

You tell me
I know that you care about me

不過那句未必完整
因為或許您其實更關心其他人

I do not mind
I didn't intend to make this a trade off

我不會計較
雖然我口口聲聲想說要公平

On the other hand
This is never a fair game from the beginning

我最佩服的
不能不是那個沒有用的自己

Deep down the cliffs
I climbed up myself by my own hands

一次又一次
我原諒了他也原諒了她

For you
It is not necessary to ask for forgiveness

你心知
我永遠都會無限度原諒您

Or
You don't need even need it

我恨您
可能您會更快樂

That doesn't make a difference
I am not a saint and I never want to be one

或者您又說
其實大家都很無可奈何

But that is not an excuse
I won't give myself any excuse at least

我知道
我一日放不下, 我一日都不會安心

Everything changes
But something never change

我不能分辨
什麼是真什麼是假什麼是重要什麼是沒所謂

So I can only
Follow my feelings and go ahead

我從來
就不是能停下來的人

Regardless whether
You are far behind or way ahead

心想
追又好等也好

Giving up
is never my style and cannot fit into my way

是我太強
還是您太懦弱?