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１２月５日：買完早餐回去，早上的壞人堂很留心地聽他講final exam的範圍，之後的raymond堂一直都精神愰惚，中午食完飯後便在環境lab.待了一會，她打電話來告訴我會址鎖匙要給大眼和關於校運的事，我…
在lab.逗留了沒多久便回家了，好好地準備……

I don’t want to talk too much about this whole day, except after 17:00. I practice several times which I want to say to her. I really want to give up, but I still continuous.

After I arrived to the back door, I call you went out from the music room. Of course I started to afraid. I clearly feel that my heart was going to jump out.

Then, I saw you. I lied to you that I need your help. After I took out Park Park and show you my real purpose. Then, I summation all the brave from my past 22 years to tell you my heartfelt wishes.

Although the result I was already expected, I still can’t acceptable. I only want to give Park Park to you without any purpose or reason, simply, just a gift only. Just like the Mirumo.
I feel deeply heartburn cause that you refuse to receive, and then you turned around and ran away.

I stood for that place for a long time without any cerebration. I didn’t bring Park back to home. My spirit was so disarray.
I don’t know how long I have been there. When I left, I saw miss Tam, who was my primary school teacher. I must keep in smile! The feeling of “put on an air of cheerfulness” was extremely unbearable!

I walked for a long time before a back to home. Although it was cold, I still running. I must vent.
After had a shower, I went to bed. I just want to sleep. I don’t want to think back all things about today. Of course I insomnia.

Renee phoned to me and asked me have I…? I said no. Sorry I lied to you. You know who I am. Of course I have….

After 10 o’clock, I sent you a message. But you didn’t reply…

I lay on my bed for almost 6 hours still awake. I really feel so compunction and regret. I hope I have not said that words today.

I’m sorry! Forgive me OK?

During a whole lifetime, I won’t forget this day.