Jun 8
Its 1450pm. I m right now at the Chicago O’hare airport waiting to fly to Minneapolis, then Deluth, Minnesota. It seems tat its e 1st time ever I used my laptop w/o plugging in e wet power^^, anyway, still got 3 more hrs to get on plane, but dunno how long can e dry power lasts for…. Haha^^
E orientation has ended. Although it wasn’t as gd as I tot, its still sad to hv it ended though. Once again, meeting ppl n hang out w/ em in less than 24hrs, its like an intensive hi-bye friendship game, happy to meet, sad to separate. Really wanna cry, but I tried to avoid it, tried not to think, not to face, gave everyone a nice blessing n hug. Days n days hv passed, it doesn’t seem tat long actually, but seems tat many things hv happened, or I should say many things hv been done, just like wt I planned/ expected?! Leaving HK, changing flight, arriving Chicago earlier, visiting ard in downtown, attending orientation, leaving for e camp, n now tat’s it, waiting to go to my camp, where I will stay for e following 3 mths. So complicated my feeling, dun really noe wt I m feeling/ thinking, excited? Not really, I dunno, should I feel sad/ happy to go alone again? Every time I m e only international staff in my camp, n I m e one traveling e longest way fm e orientation site to camp, should I feel lucky about tat? May be I should, I dunno.
Met my fd fm HK, 2 Koreans, 4 Singaporeans, 1 Taiwanese, n many many ppl fm other Westernized countries. I think I somehow hv e “Caucasian phobia”, I just dun hv e excitement/ initiative to make fds w/ em/ talk to em, I noe I shouldn’t, but I just couldn’t help it. >.< Some things to regret again, ai, last nite’s cultural presentation, about my Chi. gown, about my presents fm HK, I should hv done/ prepared better, ai…… >.< may be I should really be more positive, be more optimistic, dun think wt I hvn’t done, think more wt I hv done/ achieved, I should enjoy my days, everything will be fine, I will hv lots of fun, just like all e blessings I got, “hv a great summer!”. After e summer, I will go back to S’pore, just like wt I told my Singaporean fds rite, haha. Last thing wanna mention is tat there’s a Singaporean gal I met in e orientation, telling tat her mom was fm HK, but married her dad in S’pore n live there then. Haha, would I learn her parents? Haha, who noes. ^^
1516pm^^
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