cuz i said so

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今天N帶我去basic instinct的movie premiere party
對的 我看到莎朗史東本人
還看到alan cumming, one of my favosite actors
還看到很多名模
it was a a-list party

但重點不是這個
claire bear喝完酒之後
很想跟N回家
但是N又不想了
我整個人發起脾氣來了

結果他說
I really like you and respect you
so I think we should just be friends
if we start messing around again
its not going to be good to you
cuz i cant change my life style
and u cant handle it
of course I can take you home and sleep with you
and not give a fuck about how you feel
but I really like you and I dont think I wanna do that

我整的人鬧起脾氣來了
我說
我就是要跟你回家怎樣
我就是沒辦法跟別人睡覺
更何況 上次我跟你回家不是什麼事情也沒發生嗎

他說
但是我整個晚上睡不好
我情願現在送你坐計程車
然後回家一個人好好的睡
他說
I wanna take you to those cool parties and those really good places
dont ruin it, claire

所以我心不甘情不願的上車了
後來他傳了一個簡訊說
dont be a baby!!
我回他說
i dont think ive asked anything from you
anything i dont see, i dont give a fuck
you might as well tell me you are not that into me
but ive got ur msg
have fun in taipei and vegas
and thank you for tonite
i m very happy to see those celebritis, ha.

然後就回家
停不住的哭

我只是很想說

你真的不知道
我有多愛你

我也希望
我可以就把你當朋友
然後跟別人在一起
但我真的無法
愛別人
像這樣的愛你

I cant be your friend
cuz
you are way too attractive to me
I can never ever treat you
like a friend...
never ever...

I love you
more than you think, more than i think
more than anybody can imagine