cuz i said so

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Because of N's insistence, I went to NYPD after class.
So there I went,I saw the front desk receptionist wearing thick makeup and busy talking on the phone.
I looked around, its exactly like what it is on TV.
I was thinking that maybe i should go in the afternoon so that I could "witness" police officers eating donuts.
After waiting for few minutes, I was led to the detective's office.

I sat down. It was pretty relaxing.
I talked to the detective like I see everything as a joke.
But as someone who never got the lesson of "curiosity kills a cat", I asked the permission to read other crazy mails and messages.

and at that moment, everything just came back to my mind like a bomb
After leaving the police station, I was just so anxious for no reason

Its been 3 months
我以為我已經有進步了
原來 我只是 強迫自己
把那些回憶與事件
包一包 放在盒子裡
自以為 只要不去看它
everything will be fine
its just the matter of time

今天那個盒子一打開
所有我逃避的東西
傾潮而出
我一點都來不及躲

我連我為什麼會那麼anxious
我都不知道

沒關係 反正 我已經仁至義盡
盒子還是可以再關起來
有一陣子 也不用再打開了(I hope)