沒什麼奢求，只想忠於自己
想自己所想，做自己認為對的事
即使那不被別人看好，得不到認同也好
我還是那個我，不太會用文字表達自己
卻寫著傻瓜的故事，說著自己的感受，不顧一切的雜亂
有多久沒認認真真檢視自己呢?
我是一個很不會表達自己的人，也就是悶蛋
和一般人來說缺乏聊天的話題，詞不達意，欠缺組織性，內容空洞
這樣的性格該是難相處的人吧
我該學習好好與自己相處，也學著與別人相處
神經大條會比敏感纖細好嗎?
一天過去，經歷不少，自然有所感觸啟發改變，大集燴共冶一爐
兩天的兩科考試完了，不見得考得好，因為總是不夠努力缺乏恆心溫習
論努力比不上大多數人，只好使一點小聰明拿中等成績，不過不失
每次總有做得更好，準備更多的機會，只是每次都變成臨時抱佛腳
然後在考前的早上拚命地讀，走路時讀坐車時讀進考場時還在讀
十足十的緊張大師，不放過任何一個機會，爭取最後的時間把東西塞進腦中
該羨慕那些早作準備，那些不慌不忙，信心爆棚的人嗎?
只是知道這樣下去不行，要更積極更用功更主動努力才不被遺留下來
長遠的不說，然後是困擾了半天的小事情，關於心的取向
年的循環不確定感，習慣不來還是不安
總是不自覺在尋找妳的影蹤儘管妳不知道
然後不經意發覺妳巧合就在旁邊，打個招呼，集中精神
偷偷瞄一下妳的小動作即使沒意義
發覺彼此真的沒有交集也沒有共通的話題
是我太謹慎妳太拘謹所以沒打開話匣子嗎
還是你我都是同一種人 應該不是
巧合總是巧得可以於一個陝小的陌閉空間出現
還是喜歡看見妳的微笑即使那只是禮貌的善意
回程時又開始猶豫了，每次都是這樣
聽著一首歌，然後想著一個人
重覆著的情歌漫延了思念
也許沒有那麼壞，也許沒有什麼不可能
也許沒可能，也許不要破壞比較好，也許現在醬最好
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough
like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change...
我還是我嗎? 我依然是我嗎?
決擇怎麼這麼難? 我的心已不可信了嗎? 理性vs感性
也許明年才算吧 陪等 把握大了 時間卻錯開了回不去
心始終是最難觸摸的東西 要放棄了吧..
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough (by Stefanie Sun)
I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have sombody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
(該開始為本學年餘下的三條論文努力了吧，安定安定，然後開始忙暑假SEP，共同努力)
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