More than amazing。 Yes, this is my joking life !! There are good challenges & this always push me to be better than I thought I could be.

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my beauty sleep was so late today,

day off again, did you see what a chubby me?

i'm not going anywhere but stay at home,

watching South of Nowhere for killing time.

 

now i'm thinking about changing location to Jongli.

this is a serious desicion that needs detailed evaluation.

to be honestly, i'm still so sad about

that i'm not the first choice person to dispatching to somewhere. fuck them.

 

why? why can't i be more outstanding on this job?

this is my first time not in the top 5 of the team, even worse.

why i became so clumsy or retarded ?

i don't like this stuggle feeling at all.

 

so i cleaned up my room this evening,

and i changed my new sheet for good luck to my work tomorrow.

i have to admit that i'm so suck, and i've never so upset for my job.

uncle is so right! he said that i'm stubborn

and easily give up something if someone said that is wrong. shit b b

 

well,  things would be more clearer when the time goes by.

for instance, i don't like shopping for clothing myself,

if i were rich enough, i'd pay for my stylist.

 

her name is elsa, and she is the only one who still  my friend even break up.

we still have chance to talk via msn.

i hope she won't mind if i type her name here.

 

she has a new boyfriend !? 

i mean it's cool with that, coz i and she has our own life now.

but how come? she never mention it....

ok...it's not so comfortable hearing her news from others,

i choose to ask her directly.

and the truth is that the "news" was a totally misunderstanding.

 

for some reasons, she did really teach me a lot.

sometimes she is more wise than me,

i adore her unique insight into the problems.

and she always said that i'm the one who know so much about her:)

 

feel so empty and lonely sometimes,

but i think i'd resist the straight girls who wanna TRY to in love with me.

this is not the way i plan but all my exgf are straight girls.

i always follow my heart, let the feeling goes its way,

but i feel so unsecure eventually.

 

anyway, i really need to meet some new girls.

i think this is good for me, and good for you guys, right!?

 

actually, i'm insomnia, so many words hover in my head.

coz there are something about "lost","suiside","gossip"...

but i think the most important issue is that

when u can't do anything for something ,

the best way is to "accept who u r"...

 

but my problem is that i don't want to face the real me,

i'm so freak somtimes.