虛罔的厚度 我們將任由內在的世界如此敗壞下去嗎? 你知道一切的虛罔 可能只是因為我們開始放棄了堅持?

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應是溫暖四月天，突然冷了起來。


沿著景美溪騎單車，冷風ㄧ陣陣迎面而來，許多年沒騎過單車，沒有生疏，手裡腳底盡是青澀的年少回憶。

然而人生終究是越活越複雜，就像你的遠行，我的思念。

百分之九十的時候是無所謂的，思念的躁動在你遠行的隔天就漸漸和緩了下來，即使週遭環境從沒間斷的提醒，那不安的情緒終究是慢慢的沉澱，從極度不習慣和想念的混亂，變成習慣了但是仍舊想念的牽掛。


一個月了，從那天機場送別。


思念開始參雜了ㄧ些回憶的氣味，凡事多了ㄧ種，從前和曾經的感嘆，好像感嘆一個美好回憶，思念那回憶比思念你還要清楚。你隔著太平洋在我無法想像的遠方。


於是，我走過這城市中那些你曾走過的足跡、停留的路口、街頭的小吃，想像著這城市還有你的樣子。地平線上那夕陽的顏色、微微飄下的雨、捷運站的轉角...我閉上眼，我感覺著你就在離我三條街的那個路口倚著牆。



這城市永遠是你的城市。



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It became cold. It’s not so often at theend of April.

 

The wind was chilly along the river-sidepark. I rode a bike along the river in a cloudy day. It’s been many years sincethe last time I rode a bike. It just reminded me of those old times when lifewas so young and simple.

 

It’s just life can’t be simple all thetime. Now you’ve being away, and I miss you a lot here.

 

It started with strong feeling of lost and frustration.Now it gradually became calm. But either way, I miss you a lot.

 

Already one month..

 

Memory comes out at the moments I leastexpect. Sometimes it’s easier to think of those memories than miss you. You areso away, somewhere at another side of the Pacific Ocean, eventhe sunshine we share is 15 hours late. But those memories are always right bymy side. I can always feel them clearly.

 

So I tried to walk on those streets you’vebeen to, maybe some stands we have stopped by before. I imagined the way this citywas while you were still here. I saw sunset between buildings, the color was sowarm and peace, and the falling rain was so soft as before. I closed my eyes in front the mrt station, I felt that you just leaned against some wall three blocks away from me..

 

You know this is your city?