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Diary: 04/24/2003
Today I turn to 25!
Wow, it’s a quarter of century~~
So many things happen in my 24th year. Some good, and some bad. I learned three lessons, but they are ultimately one lesson to me, that I will always remember.
First, I realize, the worst thing can happen even if you pray that it doesn’t happen: in my last job, I often worried that my boss would leave or the office would close, and I would have nothing else to do – well, my boss left and the office closed. I was left to clean up the mess.
Second, I realize that loving a person is more than saying “I love you.” It deserves dignity, devotion and honor: in the most devastating time of my life, my love ones held my hands tight even when they saw my darkest side. I have been reborn and set free, not only because they teach me to face the truth, they also give me the courage to take responsibility.
Third: for a long time, I felt I was stuck and wondered if my opportunity would ever come. Ironically, when opportunities knocked on my door, I began to worry that I wasn’t ready. Then I realize, because I can’t predict the future, all I can do is prepare for it. Just like Eminem’s song, “if you had one shot, one opportunity. To seize everything you ever wanted - One moment. Would you capture it or just let it slip?” For that unpredictable one shot, I need strength and time to train for it.
Three things teach me the same thing: be brave.
I know it’s hard, because sometimes it’s really easier to escape from the problem. However, once I am scared, I become pathetic and petty - And I am tired of being that little person. Plus, once I face the problem, it’s actually not that bad. Just work on it step by step, I can go through this. I may not be able to do it perfectly, but I overcome my fear. I may not be a heroine, but I am not a coward. That’s an achievement.
These challenges haven’t ended yet, they are life long lessons, and will appear from somewhere else unexpectedly to test my faith. However, I will not hide from them.
Once I didn’t understand what Roosevelt meant when he said “There is nothing to fear but fear itself,” now I know.
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Photo: we celebrated my birthday this morning at the beach before going to work.
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