inter vivos .|’reflections 你是一封信，我是邮差。

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take me away.


I cannot find a way to describe it.
It’s there inside all I do is hide.
I wish that it would just go away.
What would You do?
If you knew.
What would you do?


I feel like I’m alone.
All by myself.
I need to get around this.
My words are cold.

I don’t want them to hurt you.
If I show you, I don’t think you’d understand.
Cause no one understsands.


All the pain.
I thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you.
Back to what was never said .
Back and forth inside my head.

I can’t handle this confusion.
I’m unable
Come and take me away.








看不清未來.
分不清方向.


I’m the one confused.

I’m never been alright.






很煩很悶..
想很凌亂的隨便寫點什么.
可是.寫什么?
學習的壓力很大.負擔很重.
剩下7个半月高考.
可是學習,我还能挺得住.
很揪心的還是你.
很煩惱的還是情緒.




那時候.曾有朋友說我是極度悲觀主義者.
甚至有過.醫生和我說我自閉.



那已經是過去.
現在的我不同.
但,還是我.





盡管不再那么壓抑.
但,我還是我.





情緒依舊是最能影響我的因素.




很以前的我.不開心的時候.
會選擇關上房門.
鎖上自己.讓音樂充斥兩個耳朵.


往日的我.難過的時候.
會點根煙.讓一切不快隨著煙霧消散.
marlboro.


而現在的我.
迷亂之際.還會去parkour.
parkour讓我的心熱了起來.
從高處飛躍下來的時候. 有不可言語的快感.
以自我的速度超越任何的障礙,勇敢的飛躍,
那樣的高度.那樣的速度.
能放開很多吧.


盡管我一直都想做個毫無感情的人.
但,我終究不是.
牽涉的太多.
心總會負荷不了.對于你的難過.







琪說”我覺得你總會在真的很難過的時候用繁體字.”






嗯.
我難過了.