24h購物| | PChome| 登入
2005-07-19 00:52:45| 人氣112| 回應0 | 上一篇 | 下一篇

Losing Faith

推薦 0 收藏 0 轉貼0 訂閱站台

I am losing faith in him.

Seems that whenever I see other people, they are more normal than he is. Seems that I can always feel more comfortable being with someone else than being with him. Seems that I am free whenever I am not seeing him.

I guess that's an important signal, that I should turn back, that I should not fall into the well deeper and deeper.

My life was so full of energy and humor, well, before I realized his feelings towards me. I admire myself, at that time, but certainly not at this moment. I hate myself for being so damn jealous, I hate myself for being so insecure, I hate myself for loving him.

I just don't like the feeling of the vigorous mood swings inside my heart, yet masking my emotions with all these calm expressions showing that I am indifferent and "professional" in what I am doing.

WHAT FOR???

I am torturing myself, indeed. Where is my interest in Japanese language? Where is my fond of reading? Where is my passion for travelling? Where is my real self?

I have lost every bit of myself at this moment. I feel like I am a slave now.

NO NO NO, I can't live my life this way. I just can't.

I have to change. GOD, please help me......

台長: 出前一丁
人氣(112) | 回應(0)| 推薦 (0)| 收藏 (0)| 轉寄
全站分類: 心情日記(隨筆、日記、心情手札)

是 (若未登入"個人新聞台帳號"則看不到回覆唷!)
* 請輸入識別碼:
請輸入圖片中算式的結果(可能為0) 
(有*為必填)
TOP
詳全文