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I don't know what happened.

Called him this Friday and asked him if he really liked me. He told me at this stage, he was too busy even to sleep, and therefore would not consider any kind of relationship. That's exactly what he said. I didn't believe my ears. I asked him if he was honest to himself when he was saying so, he replied without thinking, " Yes!"

So I am now the fool here. (?)

I don't believe his words. He was denying his feelings, totally. I just don't believe him.

The day after we were on the phone, he was acting weird. He told others that he didn't sleep the previous night, and was exhausted. Once in a while he would look at me and see if I was returning his eye contacts. I just stared at my computer screen without turning my head the whole day. WHAT ELSE DO YOU THINK I CAN DO?

If that's what he wanted.

I feel like shit. I feel like the dumbest person in the whole wide world. I talked to my friend and my mom about this, in order to release my emotions before I got crazy. I am so afraid that I will go crazy because of this one day.

I need therapy. I need to help myself. I prayed to Leslie yesterday night and then I turned on the radio and heard his song 沒有愛 by accident. This song was a relief to my heart. Thank you so much , Goh Goh!! I can actually feel your love. Thank you.

I don't want to foresee what will happen, but just try my best at my job. I should start eating again.

Yes, that's how the process is whenever I fall in love. It's scary, it's crazy and it's true.